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Wandering Wanderlust

I had an opportunity recently to attend Wanderlust Squaw Valley on behalf of Fordcares.com Warriors in Pink. I wasn’t sure what to expect — I don’t do a lot of yoga, I’m not a really introspective person, but I was up for talking at a couple of yoga classes about my experience and how they could help others facing cancer.

My second day at the festival I came across some bracelets. Each had a charm with a word stamped on it. I picked up the first one I saw. Badass. I put it back and continued to look. Then I came back. Badass. I’d been hearing that word used to describe me recently. I’d been avoiding it. But there it is again. I realize that while I may not be a TOTAL badass, I can be a badass. I’m courageous, strong, smart, a role model. So I embrace the badass side of myself. I love wearing that bracelet. It reminds me to not let myself get in my own way.

Later I attend a class about meditation. The master speaks about letting go about what others think, and I realize how tightly I hold on to what I perceive others thinking about me or how they see me. I make up stories that others must be thinking — “how can she be an athlete – look at her body!” But, dammit, I am a badass. And I need to allow that to carry me. I also made a talisman to remind me to trust myself. Trust my instincts, my body and my strength. Geez. I just rode 203 miles. I must be able to do something!

So a major learning for me that weekend: trust myself, I am more than I give myself credit for.

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My first STP in the Books

Would you do it again? That seems to be the first question people ask. Then they ask if I’m sore. What hurts? I finished, upright on my bike on my own power. That was my goal. 10 hours on a bike seat on Saturday and 7 on Sunday. Would I do it again? I don’t know. I put a lot of hours into training. Many Saturdays I’d leave the house at 7 or 730 and not get home until 4pm. As it got closer to the event, I’d often go out on Sundays too. And at least a couple nights during the week. Leave work at 4, head to Log Boom Park, get on my bike and do 30-40 miles, and then head home. Some nights that was fun. Some nights it was hard.

I read recently about perceived effort. It was an interesting article. It was talking about how hard to push yourself to make a difference. The upshot was if it feels hard, don’t push. Do what you can and call it good. But if it feels easy, push. You can go harder. I have to say STP felt easier mentally and physically on Saturday than on Sunday. Sunday I was trying to change my inner voice, and get comfortable on my bike seat. Crossing over the bridge into Oregon meant only 30 more miles. But those were, mentally, the toughest miles I’ve done. But I couldn’t quit. How can you quit when you’re so close. And I hate to quit.

Training for an endurance bike ride is so different from the training I was used to. When you train to walk a half marathon, you know you’ll be done in 3-4 hours. You subsist mainly on gels and chewy blocks; maybe an energy bar. But your body doesn’t crave as much fuel. When you do a duathlon, each section is short – run 3.5, bike 12.5, run 3.5. I would eat half a banana as I ran out the chute for my second run, or eat part of a protein bar as I changed shoes and got my gear for the bike ride. But, again, my body didn’t need as much fuel. I fueled up after the event. But distance biking? Figuring out how to fuel my body before, during and after was a challenge. I realized halfway into my training that the reason my legs were giving out was that I wasn’t getting enough protein. So I started trying to eat more lean protein and added a protein shake on training days. That helped. But I need to start that fueling process earlier in my training. Now I know. And it will make a difference for my next adventure.

So would I do it again? Maybe. I know I’d train a lot differently. More hills. More back to back days. Figure out my fuel needs earlier. And get out of my head. Way out. So maybe not STP. But I will do another endurance event … just not sure what the next adventure will be. For now, I’m scheduled to do a triathlon relay in Vancouver WA in August and then Cycle the Wave in September. I might throw a couple more in there. And I’ll be back on my bike next week.

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Done.

That’s it. 203 miles. Too many hills, busy highways,  rude drivers, and stupid riders. A lot of it was fun. A lot of it was a slog. What I’m proud of? Maintaining a strong pace. Making it up almost all the hills. Powering through when I wanted to quit. Crossing the finish line. As soon as I’m able to walk normally I’ll get back on my bike. Bit not for a couple of days. More musings and photos to post. For now, rest.

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Tis the night before

This wasn’t supposed to be how my night before was supposed to go. I was going to get on a 330 pm flight back from Spokane. Instead the flight was cancelled, and I embarked on a 4 hour road trip with a co-worker down I-90. It was better than the alternative — the 5am flight they offered me for Saturday morning. So instead of a relaxing few hours checking over my packing and loading my bike, I’m scurrying around. Oh well.

Do I have everything? Am I ready? I’ve trained. I’ve made lists. I’ve studied the route. If I forgot something, I’ll get it on the road. I might be making a stop at a Starbucks down the road for more caffeine, but I think I’m set.

I have everything staged in a corner of my living room. I have my luggage tags set. I have my STP numbers in place. My bike is on my car.

My strategy? 25 miles at a time. The rest stops are strategically every 25 miles. I may only stop long enough to get more water or hit the rest room. But it’s a mental game. So 25 miles at a time.

I’m nervous. But I usually am before a race. So, yes, I’m ready. Now off to set my alarm for 430. We’re going to be on the road before 6am.

I’ll post pictures and notes as I can. See you soon …

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Making new “accountable” friends

irongrirl2015After hearing Diane Keaton sing “Make new friends, but keep the old …” it made me think about where my friendships have gone the last couple of years.  When I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had surgery and later when I was going through chemotherapy, I had to learn to sit and allow other people to help me.  It was humbling to have friends rally around when I needed them most.  When my daughter graduated from high school and went off to college, I realized (as do many parents) that I suddenly had no life.  Or friends.  Or any of my own activities.  (Those of you with young children can laugh now, but just wait!).  I realized that my activities and friendships revolved around my daughter’s activities and school.  The realization hit me a few weeks after she moved into the dorm – I needed to make new friends, and renew my old friendships.

Friends=Community and Accountability

The last few years have been about proving that I can do it – even if I didn’t really enjoy it (hello swimming!).  And I proved to myself that I can do it.  My focus this year isn’t just about seeing how many miles I can log.  It is more about finding people who enjoy being active.  This helps hold me accountable to getting out and moving – given a choice, I would much rather sit on my couch and watch Downton Abbey.  But being of a certain age, spread happens.  And I not only want to be healthy and active as I go forward, but also manage that dreaded spread.    My challenge this year is to find things that help me build a community and keep me engaged in an active lifestyle.  It really is all about finding things that you love and doing them … and not being afraid to try something new (with your new community) because you just might find something new you love. 

I’ve been instagramming my journey the past few years.  It’s a fun way to be accountable, document the fun I’m having, and see the milestones I hit along the way.   My goals are small:  do an event a month, run my first 5k, find new friends and activities, and encourage others to begin their own journeys.